Hello everybody, it's past midnight now. I am currently out from my house because I don't have a place to sleep.
Formerly known as Winter Butterfly. A place where my Imagination run wild also my a place for me to draw anything that might or might not happen in life... I think that's it....
Monday, 18 November 2013
Friday, 15 November 2013
IN WHICH ONE HAVE TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER
Hello everyone, it's been a long time since I wrote something in here. Regarding on this, well... I may have to say that I have been given the "WAKE UP" slap from my English subject lecturer...
Not literally but it does hurt from the inside. I am a very sensitive person and word does hurt me... well, that is what you get if your childhood was a lot like me... I mean, telling a kid that they are smelling like a portable toilet is not appropriate. Instead of telling them that why not help them by making them smells good, the kids (meaning I) will not have a low self esteem problem. Some will survive the onslaught of a bad word, some sadly will not. That's the beauty of human mind, what can't kill you make you even stronger. The rest, the one who cannot survive from those word will become a living dead, just a shell without any hope to make through it.
That is the reason why I put so much perfume on me, just so I have a bit of a confidence. There are flaw in me which are not correctable but I am trying my best to change, in a way I am changing myself to be a better person. From what I have learn growing up until now, if you want something you have to get it yourselve. Sometimes, you have to rely on other because there thing that you alone cannot do. I am stupid, ugly and smelly, I know because I myself see it in me. I am childish, I act like a child sometimes and people around me treat me like a child. I guess that is the only thing that I will not trade for the world because that is who I am～ the mature part of me is still there. Sometimes you need your inner child in to make your life even fun and sometimes the mature part if you is needed so that you can make the right decision.
Right now, I will be me and the time comes I will be whatever the world have to offer for me. As what she said, "if I put you to the outside world, you will not survive. I know because I can see it in you" so, right now I will be what I want to be, I know Allah will always help even though it is small.
Taa for now～
Sincerely,
3862. (⌒‐⌒)
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